Pregnancy Guilt Episode II: Feeling bad about feeling mad.
May 3rd 2010 22:58
It seems with this pregnancy, I can't just feel happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled my wife is pregnant. I just hate pretty much everything that goes along with pregnancy. Yes, I know, women out there would tell me to suck it up, and that obviously the woman has it way worse. I'm well aware that my wife has things worse than I do. She has to actually deal with the morning sickness that lasts all day, the crazy hormones, and being constantly hungry but not being able to stomach any food. And I feel bad for her. Really.
But it's driving me a little nuts. And I feel bad about that too. Everything lands on my shoulders while she's tired or nauseous, and though I can handle it, a corner of my mind resents it. That corner of my mind constantly tells her to suck it up and stop making me do everything. Thankfully, that corner doesn't control my mouth, or I'd be in trouble! However, it does frequently kick my frustration level up pretty high. I have about five minutes between work and daycare to decompress (the music in my car tends to get cranked up pretty loud!), and then I'm taking care of both my wife and my son until it's time for bed.
Again, I know my wife has the worse end of the deal here. And I know that I'm not going to be getting any sympathy from any moms that read this. Still...just remember that guys don't have an easy time during pregnancy either. Don't judge to harshly if we get frustrated and easily irritable sometimes. My wife is thankfully understanding of the fact that I need to occasionally get out of the house and go running or go out with friends after work. I'm grateful for that. And I know things will get better, and we'll end up with a beautiful baby. There's light at the end of the tunnel, but currently, it seems like a long, long tunnel!
But it's driving me a little nuts. And I feel bad about that too. Everything lands on my shoulders while she's tired or nauseous, and though I can handle it, a corner of my mind resents it. That corner of my mind constantly tells her to suck it up and stop making me do everything. Thankfully, that corner doesn't control my mouth, or I'd be in trouble! However, it does frequently kick my frustration level up pretty high. I have about five minutes between work and daycare to decompress (the music in my car tends to get cranked up pretty loud!), and then I'm taking care of both my wife and my son until it's time for bed.
Again, I know my wife has the worse end of the deal here. And I know that I'm not going to be getting any sympathy from any moms that read this. Still...just remember that guys don't have an easy time during pregnancy either. Don't judge to harshly if we get frustrated and easily irritable sometimes. My wife is thankfully understanding of the fact that I need to occasionally get out of the house and go running or go out with friends after work. I'm grateful for that. And I know things will get better, and we'll end up with a beautiful baby. There's light at the end of the tunnel, but currently, it seems like a long, long tunnel!
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